Well, I haven't really blogged in awhile. So I figured that I would do just that!

Last weekend I went home to take the TEAS Test, entrance exam type thing to get into any nursing program in Utah. I'm applying to Blanding's. Which maybe isn't a good idea because my mother lives there. I learn new things about my mom every time I'm around her now. I really, really love her to death... however...

Then! My sister Carolyn had her baby Thursday (as previously mentioned), and so I'm in Idaho right now. I love it so much! Babies are a miracle. I just want to cry everytime I hold her because where she came from. Straight from Heavenly Father's arms! How could he let something so precious come to this world? I suppose it's because he knows Carolyn and Jared will take wonderful care of her, but then I think of all those babies born in much worse conditions...

Back to the nursing thing... I finished my application while I was in Blanding, and I mailed it away. I won't find out until March sometime. I think the middle of. I'm contemplating what I'm going to do when I find out. Probably eat ice cream, either way! Because ice cream is both a celebration food, and a get over it food. Who am I going to tell first??? My mom? My sister?? Ahhh!!! Maybe I won't tell anyone... hehe. I'll have to think about it!

I'm so grateful to be alive! It's such a wonderful gift, and everyday I feel more thankful. Some days I wish I could just die, not because I hate my life, but because I'm so anxious to go home to my father in Heaven. I love what I learn here though. I'm in the BEST institute class in the world right now! It's called The Atonement, Repentance, and Ressurection. We learn all about that stuff. When I tell some people, they say it sounds like a class that will make you feel guilty, but I absolutley LOVE what I am learning! everytime I go, I gain a stronger testimony of our Savior, his life, and his atonement. This gospel is such a wonderful thing! The atonement just isn't for people that mess up, it's for people that want to become better. it's such a simple thing, and yet so complicated.

Just this past year my testimony has grown leaps and bounds. Just the other day I was discussing things pertaining to the gospel with my roommates, and one of them was awfully distraught that Heavenly Father even sent us to Earth. She understands why, but just doesn't handle life well. Then we got into the discussion of polygamy, and all three of them absolutely refused to even talk or think about it. That got me thinking ALOT about it, and I have decided that if the Lord asks it of me one day, I could do it. It might be hard, but he wouldn't ask anything of anyone if they truly couldn't handle it. It's nice to have someone's trust. They also didn't like the idea of Heavenly Father having more than one wife... But I asked Brother Moses one day about that, and he said that he didn't think Heavenly Father would ask us to do anything he himself hadn't done. So simple.

I don't know if I'm making any sense. I am so exhausted! I just really wanted to let some stuff out... And Carolyn is the only one I really talk to anymore, and she's rather busy at the moment, so this blog is going to get a lot of attention for the next little while.

Je suis finir! (In french that means, I am finished... I think... hahaha!) Good night!

Well! I saw her, and she's the cutest thing ever to be born! That I've seen anyway. She's adorable! She kinda has a double chin and a weird looking neck because she's cubby, but she's so sweet looking. She has SO much hair! I only saw her when she's sleeping though, soo.... But I have a feeling she's going to be my favorite yet!

Ok... It's been along day! After we got done at the hospital, we came to Carolyn's and we cleaned away. It looks so different than when we got here. Hurray go us! I'm glad we braved Idaho in February for the opportunity to come up and help! It was totally worth it, and the weather totally cooperated!

I have a new neice!!! Born last night before midnight! She's the twenty-second grandbaby and the sixth girl. It's so exciting! But yeah! I'm on my way up to Idaho with my mom and my other sister to help her. Pictures to come soon! I hope.

Happy Glorious Day today! So Alex got a job yesterday! And I'm way excited! And yeah, life is wonderful! That's all for now! Love life!

This Pretty Lady Weeps
Today, she thought of you,
with your big ideas and
silly dreams.

She swore she'd stop,
remembering how you looked,
flustered at the sight of her.

She didn't know why,
but she loved you.
And now she cries.

This pretty lady weeps,
Deep, silent, racking sobs,
hidden in her pillow.

And there's only you to blame,
with your crocked smile,
and gentle eyes.