Addiction –noun -the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.

This is me. Addicted to Facebook, and most of all, the Scramble game on Facebook. I haven't managed a very high score yet, only #2 out of my friends, but everyday, that's where you will find me, trying to make enough three letter words to get more than 131 points. That's a lot of three letter words by the way. Sometimes there is an -s, so then a lot of those three letter words can become four letter words. And if there's an -ed, five letter words sometimes! It's amazing how the english language works! Every once in awhile I will get lucky and stumble upon a larger word, quite out of the blue. Pure entertainment I tell you.

I'm also addicted to a new book series by Sharon Shinn. Yes, it's fantasy! Who knew? The only fantasy books I've read before have been the green rider and... that's all I can think of! I'm sure I've read one or two more, but...? So, there it is, my deep dark secret. I'm becoming a fantasy fanatic and country music is starting to appeal to me again. What is this world coming to? A blessed end I hope! And the sooner the better I think. Am I morbid for saying that? No, we don't have enough adventure today... Just lame addictions that make our lives boring and predictable.

So close, and still so far...
The result of a great study of life has revealed little. Life doesn't like to be studied, and so hence, I have given up! I am competely amazed everyday at the little curve balls that can be thrown my way, and then again, I am also surprised that life can be somewhat predictable.

Despite not being such a great blogger, I still feel the need to write every once and awhile. Although I still profess that I am not a great writer at all! The reason this blog even exists is because of a creative writing class I took two and a half years ago. Isn't it great how college still has an effect on my life?

I realized today how happy I was not to be taking classes, still. I suppose one day I will feel like I need to complete my life, and get that stupid bachelor's degree that's probably only a year away, but I don't think I could handle a year right now, especially a year of hard upper divison classes. I've thought about changing my major, again. Maybe if I found something a little more enjoyable, I wouldn't mind school so much! There's an idea...

And Happy New Year by the way! 2009 already! Time is beginning to do that thing where it goes faster and faster, and I just have to watch it go by, wondering where it's going and how much of it I'm loosing. Ah!



Here's Amy and I in our New Year's hats. We were actually just wandering through Wal-Mart and decided we should get a picture with some on, so we could actually look like we'd been somewhat festive.

Well, here's my goal. To actually keep this blog up to date! We will see how well that goes... Hehe!

Today I feel regret, again. I keep thinking about a year and a half ago when my mom reminded me one summer day to write to my brother in Iraq. I was in her office, already on a computer, and it would've taken two minutes to write a quick hello. Of course I didn't, and the next day we were told that he had been KIA. For two minutes I gave up the chance to tell my brother how much I loved and admired him. I remember a time in my life when there were no regrets. Everything I had done up to that point, even the mistakes, had gotten me to where I was, and I was happy with it.

I would give anything to have those two minutes of my life back.

So after much brainraking I finally made it back onto this site. I don't even know what password worked! The joys of having so many!

I was going through all my older posts and laughing at the great memories. I miss the college days! Not the classes at all, but my roommates for sure! And the laughs we had. We did some pretty crazy stuff....

But, I just thought I'd post and at least remind myself (as I read my posts later because I think I'm the ONLY one that does that...) that I still know this site exsists... Hmmm..

Well, so much for the trying to be a better blogger idea!

I'm at work and about ready to fall asleep! I hate day light savings time, and working at six the next morning is hard! Especially when I'm trying to get used to the fact that I have to work at six in the first place. It's a handy thing...

The best part about working this early is I have no one to talk to. From five to about nine.... No one else is up! It's so aggrivating. But oh well... I guess it's good to be working!

I finally got that other job I've been gonna get since I moved home ( ten months ago)! I guess I'm finally feeling like I can handle life again, or at least accept what's happened and move on and resume becoming who I was before life got interrupted. I still have days that are hard, but their becoming more few and more far inbetween. I love having the gospel... As hard as everything has been and is, I can't imagine what it would be like without the knowledge.