Well! Here it is, the coolest picture I've taken in ALONG time! Probably ever! While in Blanding, Annie, Aubrey, and I were at the reseivoir, and while I was wandering around, AKA wading in the lake, Annie and Aubrey were standing on a rock, and they looked down and saw this. Since I had the camera, and was already wet, I decided to just wade in and take this. I ♥ how it turned out! I pretty much fell over in the water when I saw how cool. :)

Just a little more than three weeks 'til spring everyone! Hurray! Soon there won't be any ice left out there to photograph!

Well, t-minus three days, one hour, and 38 minutes til the worst day of the year rolls around. Ok, not the worst. Not anymore. Valentine's Day is redeemed because this is the time of the year that the best candy ever is put on the shelf. HURRAY FOR CANDY HEARTS!! I'll admit it, I'm an addict. But is it really addiction when for one full month of the year, I eat some every day? Then that's it. It's over. Until the next year. Hehe.

I really don't have much to say. The usual is pretty much going on. I've been in Blanding and I am going back tomorrow. Family drama... Gotta love it. I'm really hoping I don't get sucked back in. But at least I get to run and hide in a small town for doom's day, right? Hurray for running and hiding and crying your heart out!

And a shout out to Downey, 'cause they make my clothes smell yummy. (Hey, I didn't want to leave them out!)

So, I was watching a movie, and it had little wooden blocks in the background of one of the scenes, and while it was a very touching scene that was important to the whole plot of the story, I kept getting distracted by the wooden blocks! I kept thinking about my own little blocks that were so much fun! And how everyone probably has some while they're growing up. And this is the poem that resulted... It's funny, I never considered myself a poet. I still don't really. But I write more poems than anything else. I guess some people have their photography blogs, where they capture moments in life that are so precious and beautiful. I like to think I do that, but with words. Probably not as cool, but I can't take pictures to save my life! And I can't tell you how hard it was to type sparkle!

Small wooden blocks,
different colors,
different letters,
and numbers.

Stacked to make words,
stacked to have fun.
Placed with care,
to build a master piece.

Small little hands,
dimpled with youth.
All the world revolves,
around these little blocks.

Innocent little eyes,
laugh with the fun,
and sparkle with love
for little colored blocks.

From the Very Pit of Despair
I suppose now more than ever I can relate to that place, in The Princess Bride, that the albino refers to as "the pit of despair". That horrible place that sucks life, that simply takes your breath away, and that's not a good thing.

I've fallen into such a pit. A place I can't think about without having the urge to vomit. I find it hard to even breath, and when I think about the future, I start to cry. I've found that this pit gaps wider and darker late at night, after everyone I know has gone to bed, and I'm left a lone with my thoughts. It's gotten worse since I've been trying to go to bed earlier, I lay there trying to sleep, but thoughts come rushing in, bombarding my belief that yes, I'm "over it".

It's raining... Most people find that depressing, and I guess I do too right now. But, I think the best thing about the rain, is when the sun finally does come back, and shines on everything that's wet, and brings it to life. Everything is clean and the light reflects off all the water, and it's a whole new world. I'm trying to look at this experience as something like that. Although parts of this is so hard to deal with, the sun will come out, and I'll be able to see how much the rain helped, and how much I have left to grow. So I'm putting back on a happy face, determined to smile and enjoy the rain!

So, while running today I thought of some pretty nice one liners. Random, I know, but what else am I supposed to think about while running? I've decided that it's time to get back into shape, and not just by loosing weight and starting to exercise again! It's like a full body/spirit makeover! I'm sore and tired and to the point that it's so hard I'm ready to quit, but I'm almost over the hill! Hopefully it's the very top hill and not just a foothill that still has a mountain behind it. This is why I think of one liners while exercising. because I need them!

Sometimes all you can do is look ahead and keep running.

It's not so much the distance, but the time.

When it hurts the most - that means it's working!